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April 16th, 2009 @ 5:05 am this thing called LIFE [ ] [ music | Zolof the Rock & Roll Destroyer : Plays Pretty for Baby ] blows a lot of fucking ball sac. AND I MEAN A LOT. MORE THAN AVERAGE. OVER THE TOP. confusion isn't a good stand point in life. C M E

April 2nd, 2008 @ 6:37 pm unknown problems [ ] [ mood | aggravated ] So I have a boyfriend. Real, live, not just sex, not just one night, hang out all the time, boyfriend. And at first everything seemed amazing. Now I'm wondering where this kid hides his faults. He's too nice. That's a big one. And I don't mean too nice to me. That's always a plus, which he gets brownie points for that. But he's wayyyy too nice to EVERYONE. Greg, Joe, Jake, Zack, hell he's even nice to my brother.. ( yes folks THEY GET ALONG, shows me something must be wrrrrong ). Ill write more later. C M E

February 13th, 2007 @ 12:21 pm weekends?! [ ] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | knife called lust - hollywood undead ] crazy stuff man. drama. boys. boys. boys. girls. weed. vodka. orange juice. woods. bare feet. cursing. chocolate cake. hitting. sleeping. cuddling. making out. biting. feeling amazing. feeling scared. wanting comfort. feeling ignored. being happy. smiling like crazy. giggling. eating breakfast foods. dj's. wick's. taking shirts off. being a champ. yep. amazing weekend. awkward work afterwards. :( he said " you know nothing'll ever come between us cause you live so far away ". THAT WAS YOUR KNIFE. he said " how long does it take you to get to work? ". why the fuck does it matter? when i supposedly live too far away. it takes me 7 minutes to get to UPS. it takes him 15-20 to get to UPS. i live MAYBE 30 minutes away from him. brittany lives A WHOLE FUCKING HOUR AWAY. but whatever. choose her. i can find someone else.. i hope. C M E

May 16th, 2005 @ 7:33 pm FRIENDS ONLY, BIATCHES. [ ] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Weezer - Beverly Hills ] oh yeah, changing all this shit to frands only. no one else reads this sheit anywayz. <3 to the beatles. -cat 2 R C M E

January 9th, 2005 @ 2:02 pm less than zero.. [ ] [ mood | cold ] [ music | HIM - Beautiful ] So, I asked Jeremy on Friday night if we were ever going to get together, or if we're just going to keep talking, and flirting and such with each other. He said he doesn't know. And I can most likely figure out why. He does have a half month old kid. I've never seen him/her, but he/she was born in the middle of December. But so far I've done my homework for my World History class, but not any of the others. Which means I'll have to either get a Zero on my Geometry, or I'll have to copy off of someone else--which is most likely what I'll do. But I hope I didn't fail English, otherwise I'll have to make it up in summer school, and I don't think I can do that if I'm going to get the Diploma I want. [ Core 40 cause I'm too stupid for Academic Honors ]. Well, I don't exactly have anything to say, really. Other than, my cousin was here for the whole weekend, it was cool having her over, she's a neato personabug. On another note, this layout for my livejournal is wack. I hate it so much I could "spew" ramen noodles all over it.. I wish I could get the courage to ask Leah to make me one,.. but I don't want to bug her. I have five blank cds.. and I illegally downloaded some music yesterday night, and early early this morning.. I have to use 1 to make Rae a belated X-mas gift, and 1 to make Chelsea another CD [cause she's the person who gave me the cd's in the first place], and then I can use the other three to my own Amusement! well, enough.. puppy dog tails, and flipflop whales.. [ or something like that! lol ] -ca'et C M E

December 16th, 2004 @ 11:02 am at school. [ ] [ mood | predatory ] [ music | green day -- jesus of suburbia ] yeah. i know i'm weird. i haven't posted on here in a long time. i don't want anything for christmas. i'm just greatful that i'm alive after all the things i've stupidly put myself through this year. enough talk. here's a song :D Invalid video URL. Video provided by The Source i hope that works. if not, o'well. gotta jet. don't want to make mrs. johns have a kineption fit. x.x;; luv ya all. merry christmas. happy kwanza. and all those other great holidays :D happy new year. C M E

November 27th, 2004 @ 10:09 pm at mike's. [ ] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | Neena - 99 Red Balloons ] yea. i'm bored off my ass. don't got much to say. david just went to work. adam's being a weirdo. back home from the uncle's. mike's at work. chelsea and i are lovers now :D [not.] god that girl cracks me up. well. gunna go. -luv me you crack head weirdos. -cat 1 R C M E

November 27th, 2004 @ 12:05 am uncles. [ ] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | an orcastra ] yea. i'm updating. it's a very exciting thing. i need to get my act together. i got jealous at my friend cuz she said she liked someone. i need to get a grip on life. it's starting to make me act like a crazey person. well. enuf. this is my update. love you all. -cat 1 R C M E

November 15th, 2004 @ 2:12 pm school time [ ] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | coheed and cambria : the crowing ] hey guys. i'm at school AGAIN. bored out of my mind. i so don't wanna go to work after school today. talking to david.. kinda. wanna go to mike's today, but i can't cause i have to work like a hobo on drugs. well. time to go. luv yah. -love me while my love's still viable. -cat C M E

November 11th, 2004 @ 12:03 pm school time. [ ] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | Coheed and Cambria: The Glass and The Light ] well, wearing a skirt for a guy turns out to be a bad thing. i'm freezing my tooshie off. x.x -called in for work yesterday, bad me. +went to david's friends house. adam + david + halo2 + me = guud times. +got to play halo2 finally. +gum tastes like harp. [ weird. ] -haven't been spending enough time with rae. +got to talk to mike yesterday night on the phone :D -couldn't go over to mike's house cause of rents. -/+ mike said that if he would kiss me it would ruin me for other guys. 5 + 4 - ---- +1 overall for yesterday. now for last weekend. Friday +moved out of erica's -had to share room w/brother at new apartment. +chelsea came over and spent the night. +staid up until 3 amish. -saw parents chugging Jim Beam. +carissa came over at 10:30 :D 4 + 2 - ---- +2 Saturday -woke up at 9:30 a.m. +called david at 9:35ish. +woke jason up at 10 am. +he had a major hangover, it was funny. -he called me a loser x.x +got to see mike -got to see mike's girlfriend. -girlfriend's suck balls. +mike rubbed my hair. 5 + 4 - --- +1 Sunday -had to work -asthma acted up real bad. -didn't get to see mike -found out i used a ton of minutes on my cellphone. +found out adam has a crush on chelsea +found out chelsea has a crush on adam 2 + 4 - --- -2 4 + 2 - ----- +2 over all score for last weekend... +2. damn i need to start getting better weekends. well,.. monday. +GOT TO SEE MIKE + barkley :D +sunglasses on mike = major hottness. +mike's shirt +mike's pants +mike's hair +mike...alone monday +6 monday rocked. so is today. Thursday[ today ] + paycheck + beauty and the beast + mike before beauty and the beast + get to see berkley + maybe get to see adam and david and jason too! TODAY +5 --------------------- well. enough. i don't like to anaylsis things alot, but today was just one of those days i guess. i'm going to feel better once i get out of sschool and i get my paycheck.. hopefully. unless those damn taxes ripped my ass. X.X GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. -cat/crystal. --love me while my love's still viable. C M E

November 3rd, 2004 @ 5:10 pm anything and everything. [ ] [ mood | curious ] [ music | coheed and cambria : the crowing ] well, so i'm moving again. bought Coheed and Cambria, In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth: 3 a friend asked a guy out for me. don't exactly know why. something might happen, i don't know. too much drama in this life. worked with eric on sunday. logan is such a weirdass. over at chelsea's. can't use the computer at erica's. <3 prosser. don't exactly know what to post. love me while my love's still viable. viable: a : capable of existence and development as an independent unit b : having a reasonable chance of succeeding -crystal C M E

October 15th, 2004 @ 4:23 pm HONK! [ ] [ mood | content ] [ music | Ghost of the Robot - David Letterman ] ( Quizzes from Rae's Journal ) i'm hopefully going to see HONK! tonight. Jonathan's playing the main character, along with this other guy[ they trade off or something? ]. but yeah. enough babbling from me.. gotta jet. --somebody take a picture, it lasts a whole heck of a lot longer :D --Cat C M E

October 14th, 2004 @ 8:02 pm alot of bullshit. [ ] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | fuck you - by me ] so i was supposed to go see HONK! tonight. but my parents didn't wake me up. i fell asleep during my soap opera, and slept until now. i'm only 30 minutes late, but that pisses me off because i expecially asked off today just so i could go see Jonathan in that play. but whatever. if melissa didn't get her dress fitted then i'm going to kill my parents because then i'll HAVE to go to the rehearsal dinner. and somehow i just don't give a shit about anything[ the wedding ] anymore. it's just a waste of my time. --enough rambling. time to get this insane girl to bed--again. --cat C M E

October 14th, 2004 @ 12:33 am I promise I'm going to bed this time ^^ wink wink ^^ [ ] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Shinedown - Simple Man ] ( Dances with my el-ma-hoe! ) Convo with Elmo. He's a weirdo. He lives in TX. I think I'ma go see him and Richard[who lives in Georgia] during Spring Break. If I can get it off, and if Rae can too. Since I will have my license back by then. --i <3 the world, but does it smile back? --cat 1 R C M E

October 14th, 2004 @ 12:05 am work. [ ] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Belle Morte - As Night Calls ] was at work from 4-10, it sucked. i actually like it there. mom told me melissa found a dress so if they get it fitted i don't have to be in the wedding. got thurs. fri. and sat. off from work. sat. is my birthday. rae's not coming to the wedding cause of guard, but I <3 her still anywayz. ali + pamela might be coming to wedding. bed is nice, i'm going there now. --open yourself up, or you'll never go anywhere. --cat C M E

October 11th, 2004 @ 11:33 pm i am laffing, so should you. [ ] [ mood | complacent ] [ music | uh, my mix still. ] Take the test. :: how jedi are you? :: srry. thought they were funnay, <3 ya. -cat, laff or i'll cut yur teff out. C M E

October 11th, 2004 @ 10:57 pm mono-poly, it's a friggin conspiracy! [ ] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | Kate without the E - luv ya tash. ] ( Swiped Survey from Tina's LJ who swiped it from Evan's LJ who got it from Ashley T: ) ok. i know people don't know me. so here it is. my name is crystal hodge i am a female i have black hair i go to new albany high school i am a junior if you want me to remove you from my f list, then.. plz tell me. email me, better yet. taintedi3eauty@aol.com **edit** also, harhar. haven't been home cause the rents have been p-ing me off, <3 ya. back home now, if anyone wants to call and do something before my license gets yanked away. x.x **edit** - i already told you i'm lying in your arms, bleeding like a parrot in a summer breeze! - cat C M E

October 8th, 2004 @ 4:06 pm drama [ ] [ mood | confused ] [ music | the drip drop of rain on your nose.. ] things i dispise people who run their mouths, people who think they know something but they don't people who think they know me, people in general, and drama. it's just fucking ridiculous, i think that i can confide in someone and then they just go and blow things out of the water. trust should fall into the hands of no one. but i guess i haven't learned that yet. i don't know, i think i'm going to just give everything up. i need to go back to church. i don't even act like a christian anymore and it's scaring me. oh well, hope everyone has a nice weekend. -everything i want is blurred by the fabric of your touch.. -cat C M E

October 7th, 2004 @ 4:51 pm wedding on mesa burfday. [ ] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | running water ] So, Cat's got a wedding to go to on Sat. the 16th. It's my sister's[Erica] wedding. She's getting married to this guy named Tony Beemer. He works for the School System. He's a nice guy. I just got my dress, and now I'm being notified that instead of just standing there at the book I might actually have to be IN the wedding. I might end up being the Maid of Honor. x.x here's a im between me and ryan ( Me + Ryan ) Ryan's a sweetie, I hope he's happy with his fiance. But hey, going to the harvest with A.lone; gotta jam. -lemme see your pretty face one last time.. -cat 1 R C M E

October 6th, 2004 @ 10:38 pm rides, rides, and more rides... [ ] [ mood | guilty ] [ music | the beating of my heart. ] so, i get online earlier and i see that pamela's online, so i chat with her. yanno. we end up going to the Harvest Rides together. about at 8ish we split up cause she's going with Gabrielle[sp] and I saw Josh. so i rode the gravitron about 5 times all together, rode the scrambler 4-5. tornado too many to count. and those two green things once, and the guy kept us up in the air cause pamela flicked him off. great one pamela. i felt bad for leaving her. then at the end i noticed i had lost my keys--i got so fucking upset it wasn't funny. i know i pissed people off when they said the gravitron wouldn't be running the rest of the night cause they had to find my keys. i KNEW i lost them there cause i was upside down and EVERYTHING. it was awesome.. i just wish i would have spent more time with pamela.. i feel like a bad friend for doing what i did. C M E

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